Sunday, August 01, 2004
1st post ..
testing , testing , testing ..
okok , lets see actually this is the "future" ray talking here .. hmm as usual ppl would usually type testing to see weather it works as usual .. this is also the post which was not written untill now (the first post actually started ard july but give chance la cos can`t remember when hehe) .. well in a few days time my blog`s going to be already (or already) 1 yr old .. wow time really past so fast , looking back at my post sometimes really makes me feel dumb , used , bored , happy and proud at myself yeah .. well but i saw my mistakes and grown over it but .. some mistakes are still repeated even today .. today when i blog here and i might find the post cool but then next time when i come here again i might find it redundant , so heck its always a never ending vicious cycle ..
about me , well i`m a taurus they say taurus are predictable , wouldn`t take risk unless forced to and it really really takes a special person to understand me ... oh well , for one thing i feel that i can be really unpredictable and allowing my life spin out of control .. i also realised that i`m evil too , yeah evilllll ....cos i in society i did so much so called "bad things"(eg bitching about some churches , not giving to charity , stealing , etc etc etc) that the path of redemption is so far away that i can`t even see it .. oh well i`m going hell anyway .. if there`s any .. but then i`m still able to sleep at night as long i stick to my own pinciples and have a clear concious at the end of the day , if i some how did break any of those principles
1) make peace and compensate
2) if its even worse just try to let time heal all wounds
my greatest fear ; so afraid in the end dying alone in this world ... next fear is seeing some good souls not getting the proper treatment they deserve , then this is life , u can`t make everyone happy BUT you can at least try your best to help them and make do with what u got ...
2 things learnt so far .. hold no grudges and never hate cos in the end it never do you any good ..
okok , lets see actually this is the "future" ray talking here .. hmm as usual ppl would usually type testing to see weather it works as usual .. this is also the post which was not written untill now (the first post actually started ard july but give chance la cos can`t remember when hehe) .. well in a few days time my blog`s going to be already (or already) 1 yr old .. wow time really past so fast , looking back at my post sometimes really makes me feel dumb , used , bored , happy and proud at myself yeah .. well but i saw my mistakes and grown over it but .. some mistakes are still repeated even today .. today when i blog here and i might find the post cool but then next time when i come here again i might find it redundant , so heck its always a never ending vicious cycle ..
about me , well i`m a taurus they say taurus are predictable , wouldn`t take risk unless forced to and it really really takes a special person to understand me ... oh well , for one thing i feel that i can be really unpredictable and allowing my life spin out of control .. i also realised that i`m evil too , yeah evilllll ....cos i in society i did so much so called "bad things"(eg bitching about some churches , not giving to charity , stealing , etc etc etc) that the path of redemption is so far away that i can`t even see it .. oh well i`m going hell anyway .. if there`s any .. but then i`m still able to sleep at night as long i stick to my own pinciples and have a clear concious at the end of the day , if i some how did break any of those principles
1) make peace and compensate
2) if its even worse just try to let time heal all wounds
my greatest fear ; so afraid in the end dying alone in this world ... next fear is seeing some good souls not getting the proper treatment they deserve , then this is life , u can`t make everyone happy BUT you can at least try your best to help them and make do with what u got ...
2 things learnt so far .. hold no grudges and never hate cos in the end it never do you any good ..
